On prejudice

To you, everyone who enjoys the idea of sex, or is open to sexuality, is a slut. To you, everyone - even a complete stranger - who gets into a threesome on a drunken night is a whore. To you, everyone who is atheist is anarchist and has no morals. To you, everyone who drinks and parties has no future. To you, everyone who isn’t a virgin is “that dirty slut” that you’ll trash-talk about and never talk to again. To you, everyone who is pro-choice is heartless and immoral.

I won’t name anybody, but I saw a post saying “my biggest regret ever is engaging in a threesome on a drunken, sloppy night. I feel like such a slut” with a reblog saying “because you ARE one”. It’s already her biggest regret and you’re making her feel even worse about herself - who, might I add, is a complete stranger to you - by trash talking? I was also once asked by a friend in my circle, while watching Juno, “She has a baby at 16? She had sex at 16?! How could she waste away all her future like that? Such a sex-addicted slut.” all the while making derogatory comments and faces. Hey, Juno is cool, okay?

I thought we were already taught not to call people names, that not all Muslims were terrorists or not all rich people are snobs, in middle school already. Please stop with the name-calling and looking down on people you don’t know based off of one aspect of their judgment (or lack thereof); there’s more to a human being than one drunken mistake. I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again; to others, their decisions are as justified to them as yours are to yourself. They’re as ready as you are, to point your own fingers at people, to point theirs at you through nitpicking at your tiniest of flaws and your nastiest of (perhaps not literally) drunken decisions.

More posts like this/more writing, in case you missed any, as I do write from time to time.

I apologize for the lack of doodles these past days/week! I just started school again on monday and it’s been incredibly hectic, especially with my HL IB courses. I really need to get back on track because I’ve set very high standards for myself and I really need to excel during this school year, so doodles won’t be posted as often as they were back in July when I practically drew like 3+ doodles every single day. I will probably update most during the weekend (but I don’t know about then, even, because I have tons of homework to do all the time). Updates will be slow but I WILL still find time of the day to draw. Thank you for your patience! I love you all x

Copying/Originality/Etc

Others are being accused of copying me a lot. I’m sure it this rings a bell to most of you, though I won’t name any names because she’s getting it tough as it is. But if you know what I’m talking about…

Does it really matter? I mean, maybe when it comes to something more serious or professional, and when copyright issues are brought into question, then yes, art theft is big. But even if you think she did copy me, then what use is there in flaming her? What use is there to bring her down, call her names, and make her feel worse about doodling? She created her Tumblr to draw, to make our dashboards a little bit brighter, and make us smile with her wonderful art. As creepy as the coincidences (similarities in her drawings and my old ones) are, I will give her the benefit of the doubt. I won’t accuse her of copying, and I will still believe that it is only coincidental. Why? Because Tumblr was created to be a peaceful place for us all to blog and enjoy the original content others create, and it should remain that way. There is completely no use in starting drama and hurting others - even if you think it’s justified. I would appreciate people defending my originality (as if I had any in my doodles OTL;; xD), but I don’t want to be the cause for her suffering, or anyone else’s. It just makes me feel horrible about myself. Live and let live; if you believe she copied me, so be it. But I, as I said, will give her the benefit of the doubt. I just appreciate the fact that she still stands strong and wants to doodle for all of us to see. I respect her.

So please keep Tumblr a peaceful place to blog. People draw what they wish, and if you don’t like it, don’t follow them and don’t have anything to do with them. I don’t want to get myself into anything even if the person did “copy” me (I’ll remind you that doodle styles are incredibly generic, for one, so I don’t think anybody’s copying anyone). Just enjoy our stuff. They all work hard to make the doodles, and it’s never a nice thing to be accused of copying - whether or not it is true, accusing others and swearing at them never helps. If you think “justice should be served”, do it in a respectable way. We are all human, and things you say can hurt very easily. Maybe people were inspired by each other to draw, but so what? That just means Tumblr will be blessed with even more adorable creations.

I don’t mean to be hostile and I appreciate those who wish to defend me or whatnot, but I just want everything to be resolved peacefully. <3

Lucy

Apology

Some have said I don’t need to apologize for posting this, but I’ve come to realize that it could hurt others, something I haven’t foreseen at all when posting it - so I’m really sorry, and I think I owe an apology for the other artists out there. I was inconsiderate. I’m terribly sorry.

Another artist has taken the post to mean that: I get hurt by comments saying they’re way better than me because “they’re not up to my standards/don’t deserve to be considered so”. It’s not that way, and I’m so sorry if it came off like that, because I really didn’t intend it to, and only recently realized it could be seen in that light.

What I meant to convey in that post is that, even though it may be flattering to one artist, at the same time it puts down another to do so. Of course, everybody is entitled to their opinion, and you may prefer one’s art of another’s, I respect that; personally I, too, prefer lots of artists’ work over mine here on Tumblr (which is what motivates me to work harder). But does that mean that you should, by the means of complimenting them, stomp down on another to do so? I, too, get comments in my formspring telling me I’m “sooo much better than (name here)”, but as flattering at that may sound, I don’t get flattered. Not that it’s not flattering to be seen as better than (name here) because most of the time I believe the opposite and believe I’m not as good, but because they’re using artist comparison as a means of complimenting someone. Art is not objective enough to be compared like objects - you can have your preferences, of course, but to compare one to another, as an outsider, will undoubtedly hurt. I’m sure you would be somewhat - at least somewhat - hurt if you read something in my inbox that said “happymonstersm you are so much better than [YOUR name here]”! And that’s why I don’t publish them (at least, not all, I did a few months ago and realized how that may hurt others’ feelings), because I don’t want other artists to get hurt by being compared. I just don’t feel uplifted or better about myself, when at the same time, another artist is being put down, I guess?

Artists are human beings, and we do things at our pace, in our style. You are entitled to your opinions and to having preferences, but when it can hurt, keep it to yourself. Don’t stomp on one artist just to reach another. Everyone here is incredibly talented, and I love seeing other doodles and being motivated to work harder by them. Every artist has their own style, and should not be flat-out compared that way, because it does undeniably hurt our feelings (and I know I’m not the only one).

Gah, I just, I’m really sorry. I really am. I never meant to hurt anyone else and I was simply expressing my sadness over seeing such things, but maybe I was being a bit selfish in that sense. So there. And I apologize for writing so much, I’m not sure if anyone will read all of this, but… there you go.

Much love!

A few things.

I know a whole lot of you are really upset that I haven’t posted my birthday gifts yet, and I am terribly, terribly sorry. I wish it was easy to sort through everything, from everywhere, link the picture and the artist and to write a paragraph for each, but it really is too much. It’s already amazing enough that the number of gifts I’ve received through Tumblr aren’t countable using my fingers alone. So let this be the thank you you all deserve.

Thank you guys, so, so much. I know it was over ten days ago, but you guys have no idea how grateful I am. The thought you all put into every drawing, the little messages you put underneath, or just the simple “happy birthday!” messages you sent me. For the first time in my life I felt special, that maybe I was worth a little something, that I had a positive impact on others’ lives. I’ve always lived in the shade, with people often shunning me or using me as the butt of their jokes, or others forgetting me and not caring about my existence… But you guys do. I know it sounds awkwardly pathetic, but you do, you do care. You took the time out of your lives to send me sweet things and to make me feel of worth. Whenever I’m down, there’s always a few decent people sending me and writing me things to cheer me up - and it works.

If you don’t follow me on my personal blog, you probably don’t know this, but I’ve been feeling very down lately. A lot of things are going on in my mind, and not for the better. Many things are falling apart slowly in front of my eyes, and frankly, it hurts. And as stupid as it may sound, Tumblr is one of the only things can make me smile at a time like this. All the itty bitty messages I get that tell me things like “Smile, you’re beautiful when you do” or “Cheer up, we’re always there for you” are probably of the very few things that are still making me feel alive and somewhat well.

I don’t know where I’m going this, but thank you, so, so much. Every single one of you who have been nice to me, sent me something sweet, drew for me, dropped by to tell me I’m a good person in their eyes, or simply followed my blog. It really makes me happy. I haven’t been myself lately, and I’m not the usual cheery/happy person that I strive to be, but I’m trying.

Just… thank you.

This is gonna be a bit odd, but do you guys have any tips on getting fatter?

Or gain weight, in other words. And in fatter I mean fatter, not fat, before anybody misunderstands me. Practically the rest of the world wants to get thinner, but every time I hear one of my friends say “I need to lose weight!” or “I’m so fat!” I look at them and get extremely jealous. They’re not fat at ALL, and at the very very least, only slightly chubby - which, to me, is very attractive. I feel so awkward when they say they’re jealous of ME - because I’d kill to have their body shapes. I’m stick thin - you can practically see my ribs and spine when I bend, and it is really, really ugly, which makes me really detest my body. I look up so much to women like Marilyn Monroe, whose curvy bodies make me jealous to death ;_; (See: click)

So I really need some advice on this; I’ve looked up some websites and all I’ve got was “eat a lot before bed and sleep right away so your body stores the fat” and “skip breakfast”. Other than the obvious “eat more”, is there anything else you can suggest that I do? Mind you, I do eat a lot, it’s just my super fast metabolism being in the way :’c

Thanks so much in advance! Mwah x